Those Nights

Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

Memory

Remembering.
Thinking of the past over and over.
Unable to stop reliving it.
Wishing it would all just stop.
Ready to forget it all.

Forgetting.
No idea what happened.
Never able to recall it.
Wishing it would never happen again.
Ready to remember.

Now which one is worse: To remember it all and be remembered, or to forget everything and be forgotten?

The Only Thing Left

Up late.
Laying in bed.
Thinking.
Remembering the past.
Dreading the future.
Just laying there.
Laying and crying.
Until there are no tears left.
And there is only one thing left.
Only me.

Number One Day

Playing.
Unaware of anything around me.
Then I am called downstairs.

Talking.
Told to have a seat on the stairs.
A little suspicious, but still unaware.

Sitting.
Worried about what is going to happen.
Hearing the words, but not quite understanding.

Hearing.
The words keep coming.
No way to make you stop talking now.

Thinking.
The thought of everything ending.
All of it just to much to handle.

Silent.
Waiting for something.
Wishing for the tears to come, though they never do.

Cassie

The question asked in order
To save her life or take it
The answer no to avoid death
The answer yes would make it
Make it

Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say Yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger